Venting!

This is going to be a picture-free post. I just need to get some stuff off my chest. I've been pretty stressed out lately. I have too much going on and I somewhat feel alone dealing with it. Well, first of all, I absolutely love my job at Holy Spirit; however, that job & my other job hardly pays the bills. This is very frustrating since I have a degree & a teaching license. I have an interview at my alma mater, which I would take if I was offered the job. I really hope I don't have to switch schools though, because I love it there. I want to see the students I have now down the road; I can't wait to see how they grow up! They are all so sweet, and I can't wait to go to work to see what they will do next! I would be absolutely excited to have them in class in 6 grade. I really hope that is the road life leads me to! It's just crazy to think that in 2 months everything could change!

My other stress doesn't come from work. Not that work is causing me stress, it's the lack of income that comes with the work. :-/ I knew dating someone in the military was going to be hard, especially someone who is fighting oversees. I never would've thought that it would the way that it is, though. I feel alone a lot, even though I have my friends that I hang out with a lot, it's just not the same. What makes it really hard is when the person I love treats me like shit. I know it's all probably displaced anger, but it's really hard to deal with sometimes. I'm here waiting for him to return, taking care of stuff for him, and doing everything I can to communicate with him everyday (even if it's just me sending him an email or message). Instead, I'm yelled at because I'm not sitting around doing nothing all the time. It's like he would rather me sit around and be depressed rather than talk to my friends. I'm sorry, but I can't do that. It seems very selfish of him, because I know he wouldn't do that if the tables were turned. I have to live my life! I'm not a loner. I have to be around people, because I'll go crazy. He's mad at me for having fun on Halloween. I know it sucks, because he can't have fun right now but what am I supposed to do?! I haven't talked to him for like a week, and he won't respond to anything I send him. He's being hateful to me. I can only take so much. I can only be so strong. I don't know if I'm cut out for this drama. I know things will probably be fine eventually, but am I going to have to deal with this every time he leaves for something? even training? He talks like he's so unsure about ever getting married to anyone. I'm so concerned that I'm wasting my time with someone and it's going nowhere. I honestly want to get married and have kids before I'm 30. I'm half-way there! I just don't know what to do. A chunk of me says to end this all & find someone who can truly make me happy, but my heart won't let me leave entirely. I'm in limbo. It's hard to believe someone loves you in return when their actions speak louder than their words.

Boo Bash

So people are interested in seeing pictures from my Halloween party appropriately entitled "Boo Bash." It was definitely an interesting evening, and the apt looked amazing with the decorations I borrowed from Jamie. The costume choices are even more interesting! These are only a few pictures. I have plenty more; I'll have to post them later.
The rockstar host of the party! Elvis is in the building!

The coy Alice in Wonderland!

Aww, how cute! I love their costumes!

Can you tell which sister is the crazy one? haha

My little Queen of Hearts! She's even equipped with the flamingo!

Yeah...we pretty much go hand in hand!

Alice and the beer girl....I'm pretty sure Alice in Wonderland isn't old enough to drink!

Annette as a crazy lumberjack...If you knew her crazy family, it would all make sense...They are goofy!

Zach and Katie as Kendra Wilkinson from the Girls Next Door & her football player!

Kyle the lumberjack and his girlfriend, Casey, the 50s girl.

Can you believe these guys are straight?! Boyscout, Terry (from Reno911), & Ryan hiding his green man suit. It's a shame you can't see Derek's rollerskates. That was priceless!

My best friend, Chelsea, and her husband.

Umm yeah.....those are my friends....Andy had to show off his awesome marker tattoos on his stomach!

The green man suit is only funny if you watch It's always Sunny in Philadelphia!

Andy being Lil Wayne.....it's sad that he looks the part too well :-/

Elvis and a mile high captain.....hmmmm....haha

The ETC crew! Well, Chelsea used to be! I'm glad the pink power ranger got to come out and play!

If you don't get the middle guy, look it up on youtube. It's from an SNL skit w/Justin Timberlake.

Elvis and Amy Winehouse: what a great duo! It helps that our beer girl is right beside us!

Rob Zombie made an appearance!

My sister as Alice and Mike as the Joker....hmmm, interesting pair there!